FOTO: Guatemala City, pre-dawnGuatemala City. The first night, the car in front gets knifepoint-jacked at a stoplight. Bad omen? Gentle reminder?
An expat with 40 years in the country picks me up the next morning. His eyes never leave the mirrors. We shake hands as he stares forward, pupils darting around the reflective glass. He loves Guatemala. Its just how it is, he explains. He has a big smile, and asks normal questions about my life as we drive. There are places you just don't go, things you just don't do, that's all. Letting your guard down tops the second list.
Almost everyone I talk to conveys this in some format, usually without me asking their opinion on the topic. And usually with a roll of the eyes to illustrate how the charms of the city remain under the cloud of (in)security.
Heavily tinted cars. You black out your glass cuz you fear, but no one knows who's behind the glass so they fear, so they black out their glass...
A wiry man in tight jeans who's white hair makes him seem Cuban. I pass him every day. Today, he laughs along with a stout woman selling fried food at a street stall. His eyes dutifully scan the pockets and beltlines of pedestrians. The eyes of a fast pulse, he chews gum erratically. A shotgun is slung across his stocky frame. He guards a parking lot and money changing operation, subtly feeding another feedback loop.
A local journalist tells me over lunch at his friend's house that if you work every day, and you always take the buses to work, you will get robbed once a month. He admits this is not mathematical. But reiterates it as largely true. The room confers. "A lot of people make sure to always have 50 Quetzales ($8-ish) so that they can at least have something to give." So says another friend when I ask more about this. I ride the bus just two times, with people from that
barrio who ride it every day, and assure it will be fine. Nothing happens. 29 days to go.
Two women I hardly know bend over backwards to make sure I have enough contacts on my brief stay, and a few friends. Their networks respond with almost equal fervour. I can't keep up, never enough time. My hotel room has brightly dark shades of green for sheets and I disappear into a dreamless coma every time I lie beneath them.
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Quetzal?" In a taxi, leaving the working class neighbourhood that surrounds the dump, the sun is hot, my window is down. I jump at the touch to my elbow; I wasn't watching the mirror. I stare back at the kid, watching his hands. Trying to convince him that I ain't scared, he seems sad. "No." I'm glad I had the option.
Recording a political rally. Its one colonia over from El Limón, one of the worst neighbourhoods in the renowned Zona 18. Everyone is jubilant. The candidate beams smiles, and floats into the crowd. Everyone wants to talk. About a candidate that will help with security. One who promises to deal out tough love to help move the city forward, away from the 20 murders a day. About change. My payment for recording for an hour is a brief dance for a group of chanting supporters. This seems fair. When I make it out of the cloud of laughter, the campaign manager prints me out a picture. We speak in English briefly, trade biz cards, move separate ways into the dark.
Less than five minutes up the road, less than two hours later, two young men are shot eating dinner on their front porch. No one has seen anything. "
Oir, ver y callarse." As such, no one talks. The cops at the scene wait for their phones to ring with more info. There are no sounds. At 8:44 pm, doctor tells me he knows of a minimum of 10 gun deaths thus far, all young men. We get a call of three more minutes later. Then a woman gets shot for allegedly not paying her extortion fee. The doctor decides he's tired, and that its time to go home; he's working for free after all.
After 11. Still early, but already late. Long shadows, empty streets. Security vehicles and taxis dominate the roads. The occasional dog. As we idle noisily at a stoplight, a woman opens the door of a Chinese restaurant, looks both ways down the empty silent streets, throws a bucket of water, and closes the door. Madonna's "Like a Virgin" is playing on the raspy speakers. I can't help but laugh, long and loud. The
taxista looks at me, and laughs back, drives past a new murder scene, and to the locked front door of the hotel.